Year-end Review

With the new year just beginning I feel the need to pluck myself out of the past and grow anew, forward. I've been buzzing about reviewing '08 to get a better perspective on shit that went down. So here I go, writing about my past to simply absorb it all with each click-clack of the keys.

Sometimes when bad things happen in our lives, we are biased to separate the bad from the good, but everything that happens to us becomes part of who we are and become. So, I feel that we need to include the bad with the good so that it no longer has separate existence. Makes sense to me, may not to you, but I could care less.

The past year has been a tough one. Although a lot of the bullshit died down...there were still a lot of unanswered questions, a lot of thick fog. Even though some things LOOKED better, I wasn't really sure if I could trust my eyes. I may never know the REAL truth to anything I've thought twice about. I don't know if I've acutally been exposed to the truth about issues that have lingered for a long while, or if I've been conned yet again. All I really know is that in order to avoid drama people should abstain from situations that become the cause of it. Don't ever put yourself in a sketchy situation if you don't want your loyalty to be questioned.

Another thing I've learned is say what you mean and mean what you say. It's annoying when people beat around the bush and sugar coat the bull. Be real, if you can't do that then let me put it this way: piss off. So basically, be real, cause eventually your colours will surface.

Don't conceal the truth with lies, its petty. Own up to the things you've done wrong. Guys love to brag about how much balls they've got, but why is it that they don't own any when it comes to being honest? WAIT, I get it, they want to shy away from arguments, or the truth seems insignificant (to them at least), or they're scared to lose something that means so much. Newsflash, if you love something as much as you claim to then why do anything in the first place to fuck it up? I know that everyone makes their mistakes, but learn that once is more than enough. Quit making the same mistakes over and over again. So my verdict on this is don't brag about your balls if you don't have any. Keep yourself in line and in check before someone has to do it for you. Secrets don't make friends and it certainly does not strengthen a relationship.

To add, communication and trust are the keys to a relationship, it functions like the muscles of the body - if the muscle weakens the body begins to deteriorate, if kept in shape it strengthens. Personally, I have learned a lot about trust over the past couple of years. Don't let anyone fool you. Trust is foundation and without it no REALationship exists.

Besides all the learning experiences through dim exposure 2008 has accomplished many things for me that I never thought it would. Loose knots were tightened, new knots were made, and tight knots double-knotted. To those who made 2008 special and memorable, thank you. People come and people go, those that stay I wonder for how long. To those that have been there regardless, you are appreciated.