Friday, May 15, 2009

Birthday Girl

click click...


The candle's blown out. I miss my birthday.

I know...

Those that know me know that I'm not one
who's big with apologies...don't get me wrong,
I mean, when people apologize I'm glad that
the wrong is acknowledged. However, I believe
that words can only go so far. As they say,
"actions speak louder than words". So I say,
your actions better speak up cause I can't hear
sh-- right now.

You fooled me once....shame on you....
fooled me twice....shame on me.
Let's leave the fools to the April babies and get to work.
You always liked proving me wrong...so why stop now?
You can do better than thhhaaaaaaaaaat! Yaknowummmzsayin???

Monday, April 27, 2009

The Last Goodnight

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

Thursday, January 22, 2009

It's legit this time around


SHOULDA

KNOWN

BETTER

COULDA

KNOWN

BETTER

WOULDA

KNOWN

BETTER

DIDN'T

KNOW

BETTER

BUT WILL

KNOW

BETTER.



THOUGHT

YOU

WERE

DIFFERENT.



GOOD

BYE


AND

GOOD

RIDDANCE


TO

BLOGGING.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

WHAT IS LOVE??

TAKEN FROM A FRIEND.

A group of 4 to 8 year-olds were asked the question, “What does love mean?”
Below are their answers. So pure and true.

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” Rebecca- age 8

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” Billy - age 4 ( <3)

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.” Karl - age 5

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy - age 6

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” Terri - age 4

“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” Danny - age 7

“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily - age 8

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby - age 7

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka - age 6

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” Noelle - age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy - age 6

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” Cindy - age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” Clare - age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” Elaine-age 5


“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.” Chris - age 7

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” Mary Ann - age 4

“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren - age 4

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” Karen - age 7

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.” Mark - age 6

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica - age 8 (YEA!)

And the final one — Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, “Nothing, I just helped him cry”

Monday, January 19, 2009

Year-end Review

With the new year just beginning I feel the need to pluck myself out of the past and grow anew, forward. I've been buzzing about reviewing '08 to get a better perspective on shit that went down. So here I go, writing about my past to simply absorb it all with each click-clack of the keys.

Sometimes when bad things happen in our lives, we are biased to separate the bad from the good, but everything that happens to us becomes part of who we are and become. So, I feel that we need to include the bad with the good so that it no longer has separate existence. Makes sense to me, may not to you, but I could care less.

The past year has been a tough one. Although a lot of the bullshit died down...there were still a lot of unanswered questions, a lot of thick fog. Even though some things LOOKED better, I wasn't really sure if I could trust my eyes. I may never know the REAL truth to anything I've thought twice about. I don't know if I've acutally been exposed to the truth about issues that have lingered for a long while, or if I've been conned yet again. All I really know is that in order to avoid drama people should abstain from situations that become the cause of it. Don't ever put yourself in a sketchy situation if you don't want your loyalty to be questioned.

Another thing I've learned is say what you mean and mean what you say. It's annoying when people beat around the bush and sugar coat the bull. Be real, if you can't do that then let me put it this way: piss off. So basically, be real, cause eventually your colours will surface.

Don't conceal the truth with lies, its petty. Own up to the things you've done wrong. Guys love to brag about how much balls they've got, but why is it that they don't own any when it comes to being honest? WAIT, I get it, they want to shy away from arguments, or the truth seems insignificant (to them at least), or they're scared to lose something that means so much. Newsflash, if you love something as much as you claim to then why do anything in the first place to fuck it up? I know that everyone makes their mistakes, but learn that once is more than enough. Quit making the same mistakes over and over again. So my verdict on this is don't brag about your balls if you don't have any. Keep yourself in line and in check before someone has to do it for you. Secrets don't make friends and it certainly does not strengthen a relationship.

To add, communication and trust are the keys to a relationship, it functions like the muscles of the body - if the muscle weakens the body begins to deteriorate, if kept in shape it strengthens. Personally, I have learned a lot about trust over the past couple of years. Don't let anyone fool you. Trust is foundation and without it no REALationship exists.

Besides all the learning experiences through dim exposure 2008 has accomplished many things for me that I never thought it would. Loose knots were tightened, new knots were made, and tight knots double-knotted. To those who made 2008 special and memorable, thank you. People come and people go, those that stay I wonder for how long. To those that have been there regardless, you are appreciated.

Changes

IIIIIIIIIII just wanna spend the day napping and playing video games while feasting on some Alfredo. I've been so tired lately thanks to my busy days/nights. My sleeping cycle is officially messed up. A LOT has changed, some for the better.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

HELLOGOODBYE

Wait for me.

Our lips can touch...here

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Bishop TD Jake's Speech

Grabbed this off of one of my friends...this is a speech done by TD Jake:

In love you are never going to find the 100% of what you're looking for in a mate, mostly about 80%. Of course you'll see that left over 20% in others and that may sway your attention because that's the missing portion you've been looking for. However if you leave your 80% for that other you'll only be getting 20% and now in need of 80%!

Most people don't think in those terms but it makes so much sense. But of course things are never so black and white. Not many people are just 20%. Qualities will overlap and both could be 80% but some have different traits that you were looking for but never all. The key is to be able to figure out what kind of "80 percenter" you are looking for. And will some traits be worth more than others? Putting it all into mathematical terms makes my head hurt and I find it makes finding "the one" a little more analytical. We make mistakes but if focused on this 80-20 rule in love it might help us to make wiser decisions. We just have to slow down and think before we leap. This is something I had to really think about after having a good conversation with some friends. Are there certain qualities that I hold so high which are really 20% qualities and, therefore, ones I can live without? My hope is that if I find an 80%, then the 20% not achieved would be something that wouldn't be a deal breaker because I get so much more.

I'm also in favor of another rule that I'd like to think I coined called the debt vs. investment scenario in dating. I believe that "the one" is someone that will only make you a better person and help you to a better life (investment). The "not the one" is someone who makes you worse off than you were without him be it financially, emotionally or physically (debt). For example, a guy that makes you smile and adds a brightness to your day- investment and he should be someone you should keep to pursue a deeper relationship. A guy who is negative, perhaps says mean things to you and affects the way you feel about yourself has only made you worse off and therefore put you in debt emotionally.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Beyonce- If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted

And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken

So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Friday, January 9, 2009