Friday, May 15, 2009

Birthday Girl

click click...


The candle's blown out. I miss my birthday.

I know...

Those that know me know that I'm not one
who's big with apologies...don't get me wrong,
I mean, when people apologize I'm glad that
the wrong is acknowledged. However, I believe
that words can only go so far. As they say,
"actions speak louder than words". So I say,
your actions better speak up cause I can't hear
sh-- right now.

You fooled me once....shame on you....
fooled me twice....shame on me.
Let's leave the fools to the April babies and get to work.
You always liked proving me wrong...so why stop now?
You can do better than thhhaaaaaaaaaat! Yaknowummmzsayin???

Monday, April 27, 2009

The Last Goodnight

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

Thursday, January 22, 2009

It's legit this time around


SHOULDA

KNOWN

BETTER

COULDA

KNOWN

BETTER

WOULDA

KNOWN

BETTER

DIDN'T

KNOW

BETTER

BUT WILL

KNOW

BETTER.



THOUGHT

YOU

WERE

DIFFERENT.



GOOD

BYE


AND

GOOD

RIDDANCE


TO

BLOGGING.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

WHAT IS LOVE??

TAKEN FROM A FRIEND.

A group of 4 to 8 year-olds were asked the question, “What does love mean?”
Below are their answers. So pure and true.

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” Rebecca- age 8

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” Billy - age 4 ( <3)

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.” Karl - age 5

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy - age 6

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” Terri - age 4

“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” Danny - age 7

“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily - age 8

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby - age 7

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka - age 6

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” Noelle - age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy - age 6

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” Cindy - age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” Clare - age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” Elaine-age 5


“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.” Chris - age 7

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” Mary Ann - age 4

“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren - age 4

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” Karen - age 7

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.” Mark - age 6

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica - age 8 (YEA!)

And the final one — Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, “Nothing, I just helped him cry”

Monday, January 19, 2009

Year-end Review

With the new year just beginning I feel the need to pluck myself out of the past and grow anew, forward. I've been buzzing about reviewing '08 to get a better perspective on shit that went down. So here I go, writing about my past to simply absorb it all with each click-clack of the keys.

Sometimes when bad things happen in our lives, we are biased to separate the bad from the good, but everything that happens to us becomes part of who we are and become. So, I feel that we need to include the bad with the good so that it no longer has separate existence. Makes sense to me, may not to you, but I could care less.

The past year has been a tough one. Although a lot of the bullshit died down...there were still a lot of unanswered questions, a lot of thick fog. Even though some things LOOKED better, I wasn't really sure if I could trust my eyes. I may never know the REAL truth to anything I've thought twice about. I don't know if I've acutally been exposed to the truth about issues that have lingered for a long while, or if I've been conned yet again. All I really know is that in order to avoid drama people should abstain from situations that become the cause of it. Don't ever put yourself in a sketchy situation if you don't want your loyalty to be questioned.

Another thing I've learned is say what you mean and mean what you say. It's annoying when people beat around the bush and sugar coat the bull. Be real, if you can't do that then let me put it this way: piss off. So basically, be real, cause eventually your colours will surface.

Don't conceal the truth with lies, its petty. Own up to the things you've done wrong. Guys love to brag about how much balls they've got, but why is it that they don't own any when it comes to being honest? WAIT, I get it, they want to shy away from arguments, or the truth seems insignificant (to them at least), or they're scared to lose something that means so much. Newsflash, if you love something as much as you claim to then why do anything in the first place to fuck it up? I know that everyone makes their mistakes, but learn that once is more than enough. Quit making the same mistakes over and over again. So my verdict on this is don't brag about your balls if you don't have any. Keep yourself in line and in check before someone has to do it for you. Secrets don't make friends and it certainly does not strengthen a relationship.

To add, communication and trust are the keys to a relationship, it functions like the muscles of the body - if the muscle weakens the body begins to deteriorate, if kept in shape it strengthens. Personally, I have learned a lot about trust over the past couple of years. Don't let anyone fool you. Trust is foundation and without it no REALationship exists.

Besides all the learning experiences through dim exposure 2008 has accomplished many things for me that I never thought it would. Loose knots were tightened, new knots were made, and tight knots double-knotted. To those who made 2008 special and memorable, thank you. People come and people go, those that stay I wonder for how long. To those that have been there regardless, you are appreciated.